Reminisce

Baby, I just finished reading all the msgs we had last time. Gosh, I guess that's the only reason make me stay with you all this while. I even stand up for you when my ex saw those msgs. I told him " I takleh nk delete sume msg and gmbr die and I tak tau asl plz jgn pakse I" but he said if bla bla bla bla delete lah. I told him I deleted and I did not. Just nk jage ati. But I don't know why, I takleh delete sume msg yg you bg kt I those days. But baby, when you came back after raya this year we got really close and shared most of the things. Things happened. and we both know it's always been me. I was a friggin jerk. Some of the msgs showed me how you loved me and treat me. You were always good to me baby. Ever since we met. There's no doubt there. The b'day wishes. Syg, you wished me the whole day! My ex only wished me at 12 oclock and not even calling and not even taking me out for lunch or dinner. My friends did. When our time back then, you make time for me. You came by to the house in the evening, gave me pressies, wishes, and maybe slight celebration or even make time on the weekends to go out with me. I feel so bad syg. Seriously. The anniversary msgs, which sound this way;

"Happy anniversary! I really do love you so much! dear tau br2 nie b cam boring je asyik canie.. 1 day kite spend time together den hepi2..dear janji..lpas ape jd ari tuh dear sedar silap dear n takley hilang b.. dear janji dear akan jg b baik2 and make u hepi.. U r my angel baby!"

I cried syg. Im speechless. I tak tau nk ckp ape when i read this. & this one;

"hmm ok lah da u ckp ade.. maybe i lpas kan ckp je.. bt i really want u back.. im still hoping tp nmpk mcm da takde peluang.."

"ok i was wrong.. im sorie.. but honestly really xde space langsung utk i?"

Arghh! i hate myself for doing that to you baby. Sumpah! I swear i don't really know what I was thinking. I can't explain that baby. All I can say is IM SORRY.

But on the 14th baby, you came. Transferring movies. and I admit I felt akward! =) as time passes we get used to it and when you touch me the feeling of having you in my arms i can't describe syg. I can only thank god for giving me you again. When you said "we start fresh" I tak tau nk kate ape dah. When I hugged you i think you know how I feel.

Syg, I'm really sorry for what I've done to you. I know if I were to talk this face to face with you, you won't let me finish. So I use this way to let you know. I was a TOTAL JERK that time. I pun tak tau ape yg I piker kan. But I'm thanking you for giving me this chance to prove that I've changed. To the better. I loved you then. But I LOVE YOU EVEN MORE NOW! Seiously, there's no one between us already. I syg you srg je. Trust me this time at least.

Ps: I want you Mr Sunshine! =)